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Verse 1: I push people away like a motherfuckin' bouncer / but not at a club or concert, It's my heart that I'm guardin' / Most people I've known have ended up farther / away than on the day before the relationship started / Grew up as a marksman, those free throws cost me / my sense of belonging, became a one man army / From a pedestal you gotta fall off to join the party / Friends and Family, they tried in vain to find me / Ironic, heart poundin'; feel like I'm back at the line / Palms sweaty, knees weak; will I make it? It's do or die / The Jumpman on my shoes made me feel like I could fly / I guess now these J's symbolize chasin' that high / Days turn to night and dark back to light / The ebbs and flows of life, like war take a side / Lament bein' uncontent if you don't choose wise / and quick, indecision can kill if given the time
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Verse 2: My perspective's like lookin' at a mosaic up close / Details stand out and the big picture gets lost / Have to take steps backward to see what others saw / and dumb it down enough to feel right bein' wrong / Life's like a long song, thought it was Stairway to Heaven / but it was Highway to Hell when I got pulled over by the Devil / Told him I'd never settle for less than incredible / Either burn out or fade away, that mind frame is stressful / Was told I was special since the day I was born / Now forlorn recordings are the way that I mourn / the loved ones I've lost, my heart's been ripped out and torn / but I've weathered the seasons lookin' in the eye of the storm / They say Hell hath no fury like a woman scorned / but they couldn't foresee this furious journey I'm on / When dusk came they never thought I'd see the dawn / but the light my pen shed led me right where I belong
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Verse 3: At a time I was low, that was a long time ago / I watched my hopes and dreams fall like dominoes / Took controlled substances to feel in control / and closed myself off so my brilliance wouldn't be known / Truth be told I'd rather fold / Playin' a losing hand's like shootin' at a net-less goal / Sometimes you can't tell if you made it or fell short / Said I was too short for the court / so I resorted to force and wound up in a higher court / Up North used to mean a summer vacation / Now translation was a jail cell waitin' / Thoughts still racin', placed in a place where pacin' / meant turnin' around more often than I change faces / One I show my Mother, one I reserve for strangers / One when I'm alone, another when I'm in danger / Anger motivated me more than Darth Vader / My pen was my sword, shed light without a saber / The world was like Patron, I shot it with no chaser / Let the girl I loved go, no need to chase her / Couldn't have been more abrasive / but the pictures I'd paint, nobody could trace 'em / Like no gifts on Christmas, I ain't nothin' to play with / I turned my back on God and made a pact with Satan / Gave up hope in exchange for bein' complacent / Remained Grandmom's favorite even when she was robbed of the memories we created
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